The need to be loved…
I didn’t know that being loved would change me forever.
All my life I wanted to discover the real Drea
but more than that, I wanted to be loved.
I was so shy growing up and I had a really low voice.
So my teachers and families
always told me to stop mumbling.
So I thought stop mumbling meant for me to stop talking.
Every time I visited relatives, went to church, or school,
I was told to be quiet.
I then came to the conclusion that I was not important.
I didn’t matter. So, if I wasn’t important then I couldn’t
learn either. I struggled in school. I felt that
I deserved only bad. I expected my teachers to yell at
me, and they DID! I expected them to treat me bad and
they DID. I felt almost relieved when I was yelled at because
I believed THAT is the only thing that I deserved.
I came to the conclusion that I didn’t love or even like me.
So I would do everything I could to sabotage myself
when I would begin to succeed at anything..
I let what others said, or the false
images they projected on me, and the lies I began to
believe for so long, dictate my belief of who I was.
Well, the Creator knew my struggle. He loved me all
along because He created me. He says that I am perfection
in his book. But I couldn’t believe it
Part II Heart Invasion:
One day when I was 17 years old. GOD MET ME. I was
ready. He spoke to me with a gentle voice and said,
You are enough. You don’t have to make anyone
Happy, only ME. I love you just the way you are.
Tears flooded my eyes. Doesn’t everyone want to
hear that? Don’t people go through great lengths
and even die to get someone’s affection, love,
God of all the universe said, “I love you just the way you are!”
Yet…God told me… little ol’ me.
How cool is that?
I have a few more stories to share but I will do so at another time.
Knowing Whose I am, is a beautiful discovery.
I’ll find myself as I go along
With the confidence that the God of all the universe
Loves me unconditionally, and what I say matters to Him.
How cool is that?
Because of that LOVE I have true peace and freedom.
Do I get those old thoughts back? Yep.
Do I get those old feelings of “You don’t matter?” Yep.
I just don’t let them control me. I’m FAR from
Perfect but I am I am perfectly loved by God.
I remember the truth and focus on that.
Did you ever have crazy moments in your child-hood
that possibly adversely affected you? Did you overcome? If so, how?
Please share in the comments below.
Deb and I would love to hear from you.
Love and freedom,