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Part I

The need to be loved…

I didn’t know that being loved would change me forever.

All my life I wanted to discover the real Drea

but more than that, I wanted to be loved.

I was so shy growing up and I had a really low voice.

So my teachers and families

always told me to stop mumbling.

So I thought stop mumbling meant for me to stop talking.

Every time I visited relatives, went to church, or school,

I was told to be quiet.

I then came to the conclusion that I was not important.

I didn’t matter. So, if I wasn’t important then I couldn’t

learn either. I struggled in school. I felt that

I deserved only bad. I expected my teachers to yell at

me, and they DID! I expected them to treat me bad and

they DID. I felt almost relieved when I was yelled at because

I believed THAT is the only thing that I deserved.

I came to the conclusion that I didn’t love or even like me.

So I would do everything I could to sabotage myself

when I would begin to succeed at anything..

I let what others said, or the false

images they projected on me, and the lies I began to

believe for so long, dictate my belief of who I was.

Well, the Creator knew my struggle. He loved me all

along because He created me. He says that I am perfection

in his book. But I couldn’t believe it

Part II Heart Invasion:

One day when I was 17 years old. GOD MET ME. I was

ready. He spoke to me with a gentle voice and said,

You are enough. You don’t have to make anyone

Happy, only ME. I love you just the way you are.

Tears flooded my eyes. Doesn’t everyone want to

hear that? Don’t people go through great lengths

and even die to get someone’s affection, love,

approval, acceptance.

God of all the universe said, “I love you just the way you are!”

Yet…God told me… little ol’ me.

How cool is that?

I have a few more stories to share but I will do so at another time.

Knowing Whose I am, is a beautiful discovery.

I’ll find myself as I go along

With the confidence that the God of all the universe

Loves me unconditionally, and what I say matters to Him.

How cool is that?

Because of that LOVE I have true peace and freedom.

Do I get those old thoughts back? Yep.

Do I get those old feelings of “You don’t matter?” Yep.

I just don’t let them control me. I’m FAR from

Perfect but I am I am perfectly loved by God.

I remember the truth and focus on that.

Did you ever have crazy moments in your child-hood

that possibly adversely affected you? Did you overcome? If so, how?

Please share in the comments below.

Deb and I would love to hear from you.

😉

Love and freedom,

Drea